Our Bugga

Ryder

I have so many thoughts that I just do not where to begin with this post. I know that I am blessed to have been able to give birth to Ryder and to raise him. When Rick and I found out that we were pregnant we were thrilled. We started calling the baby Ryder before we even knew what we were having ( it is a good thing we had a boy). Rick used to race motocross so I think that is why he liked the name so much. I always wanted a boy.  I truly think that it is because my little nephew Mason was so full of mischief and naughtiness but yet such a good little boy. I also would hear fun stories from my good friend Emily about her son Dallin. I just remember always thinking it would be so much fun to have a little boy. He was a tough baby because he did not sleep very well at all but now he is almost four and just perfect.  I never knew you could love someone as much as I love Ryder. I love him more than words can express. My heart breaks at times for him because I want so badly for him to have siblings. There are a few times when I will be walking outside & he will ask, "mommy are we having a baby today"? I have to tell him not today and I am not sure if that day will ever come. Rick and I both come from large families and what a blessing that has been. It is so much fun to have family gatherings and to have that bond. I have four brothers and one sister, they are some of my best friends. My birthday was the other day and my brother Donny called and texted a few times to make sure I was having a good day--I loved that. We have each others backs and we love each other--that is the way it should be.  I want Ryder to be able to experience that relationship with siblings more than anything. I know I hold him a little closer because he is all I have right now.

Let me tell you about Ryder. He may be shy when he doesn't know you but that little boy is so fiesty at times that it makes a mommy proud. He is very smart and I always tell Rick that he takes after him. He loves to push the limit as of late--that does not go over well with Rick :). He loves to play with his friends. We have been very fortunate to live in a neighborhood where there are some little boys that he loves to play with.  He knows how to ride his bike without training wheels and boy is he fast. He is a total boys boy and oh so sweet at the same time, and I am proud to call him my son.